August 25, Tuesday Night:  I am feeling a bit better today.  My son has been with his daughter since last Thursday and when he calls me he sounds so happy.  I'm so proud of him for being such a good dad on such short notice.  One day he's this carefree guy and the next he's taking care of his one year old daughter.  So his happiness is easing my mind a bit.  I just hope all goes well and continues to go well.  My fear is Skylar's mother will up and move away.  She's already far enough from Derrick... he's a four hour drive away.  Derrick plans to see Sky again in Oct then hopefully again in Dec.  That's all the time that his tour will allow.  So if Derrick is happy then I'm happy.  What a lucky little girl Skylar is to get my awesome son as her daddy!!!

August 22, Friday Late Night:  I am just so down in the dumps.  Really, really down.  My son is with his new surprise daughter and I guess I'm just really worried about them.  In case you missed my email, I became an unexpected grandmother last week to a little girl my son only recently found out about.  She is one year old and her name is Skylar.  She lives in Mississippi and my son met her mother back in 07 while playing at a casino there.  Fast forward to a couple weeks ago and my son got a call with the news that he was the expected father.  And DNA proved he is.  He's very happy but I'm having a very hard time with it.  I worry so much that this is not going to play out like my son thinks it will.  He loves his daughter and wants to be in her life and well... I just think it's going to be very complicated.  I think I'll just go to bed and try to get some sleep.  But sleep won't likely come until the sun comes up.  I just can't sleep.  Wow... what a depressed state I'm in :o(

August 19, Wednesday Late Night:  Waaaa.... waaaaa.... I gained this week!  Now a quarter pound gain does not bother me.  But if I would have lost this week and next week I would have won an award for no gains for the entire summer.  I had no clue that I was so close to that prize else I would have tried extra hard to lose.  I just did my usual and this week I was up just a bit.  Oh well... who needs to be recognized on stage.  I guess I don't.  My real prize will be when I lose my 100 pounds... and then some.  I think two gains in a year is not too shabby :o)

August 13, Thursday Afternoon:  I went to my TOPS meeting last night and I lost yet again.  Only 3/4 pounds but I'll take it!  I was hoping joining TOPS would speed things up for me a bit but I'm satisfied to at least be losing weight.  How long it takes does not really matter.  I got my cousin to join last night so that is wonderful!  We do not spend time together and it will be great seeing her every week.  And she likes to walk so I may just get out there with her one of these days.  As for the treadmill... um... I think my treadmill experiment is over.  Those of you who read my blog know how much I hated it!  My knee still has not fully recovered so I think the treadmill is history.  But as for my weight loss, I will just keep plugging away at it!

August 8, Saturday Afternoon:  I guess I'll take my mother out tonight.  There are free concerts on Sat night in Wells Harbor (beautiful place!) and it gives us and the dogs a ride and gets us out of the house.  We don't stay for the whole concert.  I just like to take the dogs out for a bit of fresh beach air then we come home.  My mother does not get out of the car.  I'm feeling a bit lazy and almost don't want to go but we've been without a car for 2 weeks so I think it's good to get everyone out of the house for a change of scenery!  And a 5 minute walk with my dogs will do me good too :o)

August 7, Friday Afternoon:  I am trying to figure out what to do with myself.  I don't feel much like working but I have a lot of work to do.  I'm almost in the mood to paint a wall or something!  I have almost my entire home repainted but still have a hallway and the stairway to finish.  I also think I need to rip up the carpet on the stairs and maybe refinish the old wood.  I wonder what is bringing on this sudden burst of wanting to do stuff?  Oh well, I'm only in the "wanting to" stage. Not in the actual "doing stage" yet.  So it's very likely that nothing will get done :o)  As for my eating, I've been struggling and I know why.  My son is coming home for a week and I think it's the excitement.  I have always been a celebration eater.  Never been one to eat when depressed.  So I have to just be aware that any new desires to over eat are probably just temporary.  I really should get out and walk a bit... did I just say that?  I need to get that thought out of my mind pronto!  That is one "wanting to" thought that I can guarantee will not get done :o)

August 5, Wednesday Late Night:  I lost a whole pound this week!  I'm thrilled with that.  I'm the queen of partial pounds so a whole pound at once is something to celebrate!  I celebrated by buying myself a bunch of the most delicious seedless black grapes!  Yum!  I always go to the store after TOPS to buy a few things.  After the meeting is when I do my best shopping.  I'm always psyched to have done so well and treat myself with something good and healthy.  I start working toward my next weigh in immediately after the meeting.  I never quit!

August 4, Tuesday Late Night:  Can you believe it's already August?  I can't!  We did not have much of a summer here in Southern Maine.  I rained all of June and most of July.  People with pools did not get to use them.  I think it will be a nice fall though.  We are bound to get some nice weather!  I am very anxious to get my next lot of auctions listed.  Your eyes will pop out of your head when you see all the new tapestries and sarongs I have!  I will list them on August 9.  Then my son will be home on the 10th for a week.  It will be so nice to have him home!  He lives in Nashville but is on the road touring so much that he's rarely in Nashville.  Can I show him off?  I say YES I CAN!  derrickmichaud.com  And you have to check out his tour schedule and see all the cool places he plays.  He'll be in South Padre Island, Texas for a month in September. If you happen to live near there you must go see him play!  I wish I could go but I need to lose a whole lot of weight before I travel.  I can still barely walk without dropping dead.